March 22, 2019

trend talk: bucket hats

Have you ever seen a trend and thought "I wonder if I could pull that off?" 

The 90s style trend has come back with vengeance and firmly caught my attention. I first spotted them on festivalgoers, last summer; from Coachella, Wireless to Reading & Leads Festival they were everywhere! I decided it was time to bite the bullet and as soon as I bought one it was super hard not to keep adding to the collection. 

I felt so inspired I did a mini lookbook...check it out below: 

1. ASOS DESIGN Natural Check Bucket Hat -
2. Stradivarius Pleather Bucket Hat -
3. ASOS DESIGN Bucket Hat in Black Faux Fur - Sold Out
4. My Accessories Grey Faux Fur Bucket Hat -

Bucket hats are certainly a fun statement piece and I had so much fun being creative with each look and shooting self-portraits, I hope you like them too!
What do you think of bucket hats? Is it a trend you would try?
If you have a favourite out of the four, let me know! 
Talk soon, Lavinya - x

March 20, 2019

trying to figure it all out.

Somewhere between "God's plan" and "God quit playin!"😩

I'm writing this blog entry, bleary eyed and exasperated. Normally I wouldn't blog this way and I should probably step away from my laptop but eh...I'm not above sharing the bad times, this blog is not intended to be a highlight reel. 
Knowing me, I'll hit publish and a calm wave of rationale will engulf me with an outlook on life less bleak than my current, possibly regretting the overshare, but right now this is what I need. A brain dump of all my thoughts and suppressed emotions plaguing me. 

If you couldn't tell I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. I seriously cannot believe its mid-March!!! I feel like the years moving so fast and I've gained little in return for all the time and effort I've been inputting into different areas of life.
Disappointingly, I'm still job hunting and its such a time consuming, tiring, defeating process. Some days I wake up feeling immobilised, like my life is at this standstill waiting to get off the ground and with every rejection email or lack there of, grows the emotion I'm seeping deeper underground. 

Not going to lie to you folks, I don't feel planted. πŸŒ± I feel buried

While I pride myself on my ability to be independent and a master of many skills, especially when it comes to content production for my blogging/Instagram, at times, like today, the feeling of doing everything alone overwhelms me. There are a million and one things to do and only one, over-caffeinated, sleep deprived, holding-on-to-my-dreams-as-tight-as-I-can ME.πŸ™ƒ

The feeling that my body is literally falling apart is definitely not helping my mood either. When I'm not lying horizontally nursing day 4 of a migraine, I've found myself using the internet to self-diagnose every lump, bump, pain and strain in my body. You know what's funny 90% of my pain symptoms are very common in people who are athletic, which is even more funny because I do ZEROOOOOOOOO exercise!!! So how Sway? πŸ€·πŸΎ‍♀️
My GP wants to refer me to physio, which will take another 6 weeks for me to get an appointment and after all that waiting they will only give me basic stretching exercises and if I'm super lucky, acupuncture. I'm thinking of booking a deep tissue massage because I wake up everyday with neck pain, and bless my mum for trying, but I need someone who knows what they're doing to "put them paws on me".

Admittedly my diet has been all over the place, when your at home for the majority of the day takeaway delivery is sooo easy. I know I should cook but I feel like I cant waste time stepping away from my laptop to do it, unless its to make another coffee! So a poor diet + stress = larger FUPA than normal and my hair is breaking loads. I've gone from neck length to just below my chin. This is the worst I've ever seen my hair.

In my anxiety filled state I cant even comfortably listen to my lit Spotify playlists or watch TV in peace without the latest cervical screening ad popping up, killing the vibe and sending me into uncontrollable panic that I keep forgetting to book an appointment and ignored all the invites to do so last year.🀦🏽‍♀️ 

"You could do with a holiday Lavinya"...yup your probably right but the fact I've yet to tick "find a job" off from my daily to-do-list means my brain wont even entertain anything that isn't career related. My mum is really on me to book something, it's a regular conversation I end up running from. I just feel pressure. Bless her, she's even offered to pay for me which I'm sure everyone would jump at the offer but I cant help feeling like it should be me treating her and all I can think about is how I don't have a consistent income to fund this, how I don't have a job, how I don't have time to think about passport renewals and visa's and I cant relax into holiday planning until I feel secure in my future. So, after much deliberation, I don't think I have a choice but to go back to my old temping gig 😭. The idea literally makes me cry because its an environment I thought I had moved on from indefinitely, but I need money πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’° its as simple as that. I guess for the time being I'm going to have to do some things I (really x infinity) don't want to, especially if I want my account balance to stop giving me the side-eye. f*$% adulting.


Ok so I'm done ranting, venting, sharing, publicly telling the world what a mess I am right now. I mean I've literally wrote a post about how I'm feeling shit so if you read it all, thank you πŸ™πŸ½ and sorry?

My plans this evening? I'll probably have another cry lol, finish watching the Dirty John doc, get a good nights rest and wake up (God willing) to tackle life again in the morning. Funny how life is so rubbish at the moment yet I still hope I'm blessed with another day to live it, guess theres fight in the old dog yet...

Shout-out to the people trying to figure it all out. I'm rooting for us.

March 15, 2019

styling tips: 1 summer dress, 3 ways

Hello Mr Sun where art thou? sincerely, management...

For more styling inspiration, daily outfits and videos follow me on Instagram here!

hello angels! The weather doesn't know what it wants to be: cloudy, sunny, windy, rainy. The UK is experiencing every weather emotion there is at least once a week! 

If your like me, you've already begun to take all your spring/summer gear out of storage hoping to stunt in what should be warm weather. I guess were too early for the weather Gods! But don't go putting them back! Check out my video below on how to mix in your knits, blazers or shirts and lightly layer up!

1, 2 or 3? Let me know which lewk is your favourite!🌟